I am scared.

I am scared.
I am scared.

I am scared of spiders. They bring out the fear, of the little girl, in me. I can't be a little girl anymore. I have to be able to be me for everyone else. I am no longer a little girl. That is no longer me.

I am scared of heartbreak. I try to keep my heart closed. If my heart is closed then nothing can get it in; nobody can destroy me from the inside out.

I am scared of complete silence. If there is complete silence that means life can't be found. The quiet scares me because it yells the truth until heard.

I am scared of being alone. If I am alone there is no one around to give me reason to keep going. If I am alone I feel vacant.

I am scared of death. After I die there isn't heaven or hell just blackness. In the blackness I would sit alone. Alone I would think of how foolish I had been in the past. Once I realized how foolish I was, I would want to beat myself up and die but, I was already dead.